Not your Average Girl

It's becoming more and more evident that I do not understand people. I don't understand why people put up with abuse and nonsense for "love". I don't understand why people feel petty things are so terribly important that they will end friendships and relationships over them. Maybe I'm just a go with the flow, zen kind of girl. Maybe I just don't have feelings. Either way, I'm not your typical girl.

If you don't call or text me everyday, it's OK. I do have a life and responsibilities. It doesn't mean that I don't like you, I'm just BUSY. Understand that and we'll get along fine.

If you don't remember our anniversary and don't buy me a gift, it's cool. chances are the only way I remembered (if I did...) is because I'm anal about writing everything down. And I don't want you to buy me a gift because you have to. I much prefer random meaningful gifts.

I try to be compassionate, I really do. But sometimes I'm thinking, why does it matter? There are times when I do actually say it, but I try to let people make their own decisions. And I'm happy with mine.

Love Always,
**Jen**

I Want Everything

I realize I may be contradicting myself a little bit here, but it's my blog and I can do whatever I want. I realize that it's a little over two months into the new year (and that I also said that I don't make new years resolutions). BUT I'm going to make some life resolutions, I guess you could call them. You could call them a bucket list (I'd prefer not to only because IF by chance I don't fulfill them will I die with regret? I'd rather not know.) And as with anything this list will constantly grow and evolve. I can't really be expected to hold onto the same hopes, dreams and goals for my entire life, can I?

1. Sleep in every state in the U.S. I only have 39 to go!

2. Go on a cruise. And not remember any of it.

3. Take a week (or month) and just drive. No destination required.

4. See as many live concerts as I can. (Or see many different artists live). This is where festivals are great.

5. Get married and divorced in Vegas.

6. Get the proverbial balls to go to a nude beach. And go nude.

7. Meet a rock star. Naked.

8. Own a corvette. Or two. Or three.

9. Try over 100 kinds of beer. Trust me, I'm well on my way.

10... yet to be decided.

I advise you come up with you own list. don't take it so seriously though. Remember what they say "Don't take life so serious, you'll never make it out alive."

**Love always**
Jen

Eat, Drink and be Merry...

Tis the time of year for Catholics to sacrifice something for forty days. Now, don't get me wrong I understand the reasoning and everything, but doesn't that just seem a little well, silly? Depriving yourself of something you love. I think we, as a society, sacrifice entirely too much in order to survive. We sacrifice our dreams in order to put food on the table. We sacrifice our personal happiness for the happiness of others. Don't we deserve to make ourselves happy? Why should we give up more of ourselves in order to have a good afterlife?

I'm from the school of thought that we should never deny ourselves things that make us happy. Life is too damn short to be anything but happy. And yes, there have been times when I have overindulged. But do I regret it? No. Would I have regretted not doing something that made me happy? Absolutely. Now, I'm not religious by any means, I don't live my life a certain way to assure that I get into heaven. I live everyday like it's the last one I'll see because I know all too well that it may be just that. I'm not saying that it's wrong to live a righteous life, I'm just saying that it's not for me. If I die with a smile on my face then it was all worth it. And if I go to hell because of it, so be it.

But back to Lent. I propose we try a reverse lent, if you will. Instead of sacrificing something, we need to do something everyday for forty days. Let's say you lent you gave up sex. Then have sex everyday for forty days. You get the gist?

Love always,
**Jen**